The Mean Reds

I got back from the beach today and while it was amazing and wonderful I'm feeling a little down right now. Maybe it's because I'm listening to Fall Out Boy and feeling all reminiscent or because I got some really sad news this morning or because I know Carin had to say goodbye to her boyfriend today.

I have one month and 3 days left in Spain and it just isn't enough. The realization that I'm going to have to part ways with the people here and this country is finally hitting me and I'm having a hard time accepting it. The worst feeling in the world is losing people. Not just when people die but when we go our separate ways because that's just life. You would think that over the years this would be easier to accept but this is going to be so hard to say goodbye. I think about the last day and how that moment will be the last time we are all together, the closest we will ever be, not just physically but in friendship. It is not like we won't stay friends, many of us are going back to Winona together and there hopefully grow even closer but this group of people as a whole will be torn apart and I'll probably never see many of them again. 

This past year has been kind of tough for me. I have lost a lot of friends, friends I never thought I would lose. This semester has been so good for me. I have had a chance to take a step back from the mess that was last semester and take a deep breath. I know that our lives are so busy and I just don't want to lose the friendships I've built once I get back home.

This morning Maggie told me a girl from WSU named Lauren Swab died. I met her a few times because she was one of Kelly's best friends. Although things did not end very well between the girls at the Purple Palace and me I know everyone is hurting right now and I really hope they are okay. Lauren was really nice and always seemed to be having a good time. I can't even imagine what Kelly is going through. To lose someone so young. I'm not sure if her death was unexpected or if she had health problems. I don't think either one would be better than the other. It makes me think about appreciating the time we have with the ones we love. Never taking anyone for granted. Enjoying every second you have with the ones you that make our lives a little brighter, because that's really the only important thing in life.